Some vivid experiences

Today morning while I was meditating, suddenly I had this visual of the entire cosmos flashing in my mind and the visual was very bright and too large for my mind to hold, in that I was searching myself, and I could not find myself. Once I was out it felt more like a dream. When I was in it I was getting all these feelings, that have I done anything in life that goes beyond me and my family and friends. What is my contribution to this life. The life I am living, is it meaningful or I am too absorbed in my own-self.

I was only having the feelings of all these questions and searching myself in that vision and somewhere I found a very faint me, like a tiny dot and that's where it ended. Later on I was thinking about this whole sequence and my feelings that were in it and felt a little strange with myself.

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As I was thinking to myself about this sequence and reflecting on my life, I realized that in the last 2 years I have been completely absorbed with myself. In the past, I was doing many things that went beyond me, but in the last 2 years with my home project I have been engrossed in it and not able to focus on my other goals of life that has been in pipeline for a long time and probably that's the nudge I was getting from the Universe in my Meditation experience. These thoughts also have been going on in my mind for some time that now it's time for me to move on to the next goal. It was so difficult to find myself and that too I could barely notice myself. It just makes me feel now that in billions of people I am also this one small energy somewhere who is lost in own-self.

I cant figure out what other interpretation I can have of this experience besides feeling so insignificant in this entire cosmos. This insignificant does not mean I do not have power of my own, it just feels that the Universe is too huge for me to boast around it for anything I do. I may have done many things for myself and for people I know but I have not done anything much for the larger good and I do not know if I will be ever able to do also or am I even meant to do it in the first place.

Some times I find these visions very complex and confusing and for days I am in them trying to figure it out and sometimes I find answers, whereas sometimes I have to just give it up. Let's see what it is going to be this time.
As of now I feel I am sounding also very confused :-)

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