Thank you for your comment, I appreciate it. It was such a long comment so I'll focus on answering your questions in it.

Oh and i tried to help others too. Yes i did that and still do. But it also made me sicker and more screwed up. I have no idea how to explain that in a comment here. Maybe the one thing that i could say is, do the thing. The one thing, that you KNOW you want and are good at and can do. I painted. What is it for you?

In short, I'm a pillar of support. I've always been that "go to" guy, ever since I was a little kid. Whenever someone had problems, if they felt sad or had a bad day, they came to me. My entire life has been like that.

I've been there for my friends and for my family. I've been there for my mother and I was there for my father when he was still alive. People have always been able to rely on me... And I like to be that person.

Ever since I started to suffer from mental illness, I've been eager to make a real difference. I want to help others. I want to help people who suffers from mental illness to live their lives to the fullest, and that's why I've started to study. I've studied since March this year, and I worked as a full time freelancer for years before I took that "leap of faith" and started to study.

I might not be that same type of person on Steemit, but I work to make this a better place. I'm the co-founder of the asapers and I'm the founder of the "push people"-initiative. Both are projects to improve the overall experience and to make Steemit a better place.

However, I might be doing things wrong though. I mean, I'm only human, I make mistakes and it's nothing that says that what I'm doing is what's best... But it is what I personally believe is the best I can do.