Have the knowledge that you were there for him when he needed you most; he did not have to die afraid and alone, and that is a good thing.

Well, that's not entirely true, I guess. Because it wasn't something we expected. He just collapsed on the floor, but I wasn't to clear with that in the article.

After you suffered your Father's death, did you begin to take pharmaceuticals for depression?

No. It wasn't until about a year later when I suffered from my first panic attack I started to suffer from mental illness. Everything came at me like a lightning bolt.

I talked to several psychologists, and I went in and out from Hospitals as I thought I was about to die each time I suffered from a panic attack. It wasn't until then I started to take meds.

I stopped taking meds after a few months though, after several attempts on a wide range of different pills, because I felt worse.

Do you understand that what you're going through is natural, and that one doctor's diagnosis, is just one man's opinion?

Yes and no.
I've talked to several psychologists and doctors, so I know that the diagnosis are accurate and real so to speak. I know how I feel, and I know that I suffer from mental illness, but I also know that many of the things I feel and experience is natural, even though my panic attacks are the worst thing ever.

I still, to this day, struggle to understand and realize that it's a panic attack and not myocardial infarction I suffer from for instance. When a panic attack sets in.

Thank you for the comment, I appreciate it and I hope you'll be okay.