Fortitude and forfeit

Thinking a little about difficulty I realise that no matter how much I work, my life is one of relative ease in comparison to some in this world but, experience is relative. It is impossible to walk in another's shoes, impossible to carry their emotional burdens. In this way, we are islands.

Many of us have been sold a lie in this life as we have been told that we should be happy which is inevitably a position that will always fail. It is akin to jumping from the ground and not expecting to land again. What goes up, is the expression that comes to mind.

The quest for improvement to life can be a noble I've but there is no guarantee that they will ever arrive or, we will live to see them. An interesting thing I noticed a while ago is that when I imagine the future, I myself am not in it, I watch it like a movie, a passenger disconnected.

This is perhaps a problem when it comes to building for future generations or, repairing for them. Since we are unlikely to see the end of the project, why bother, why rush? It is likely how we ended up here on the first place; "I won't live in filth do the is no cost to polluting."

I was taking to a friend the other day about my life in general and it seems that it is down to duty and responsibility. In some way, I am already the passenger as at least currently actions are directed by circumstances and even while In actively make choices, they are not for me directly, they are for others for which I must provide.

I wonder how much I could endure of push cage to shove, how crushing could life be before my resilience waned and I threw in the towel. Fortitude is the ability to brace oneself and carry on despite challenge and ignore the probability of failure. To withstand.

Sometimes I consider how close I have come to being the knee to life and question if I was close at all. Perhaps my mind considering giving in was part of the process required to stand my ground or, to get back up.

Maybe, no matter how difficult or painful life is, the goal is developing the tools necessary to drive on. Maybe this is the adaption necessary for our own evolution, our personal awakening. Suffer enough until we find a better way, or accept that this is the only way.

Life provides what it does, how we choose to live with it is up to us.

Taraz
[ a Steem original ]
_{(posted from phone)}