The constant change

Some times when we meet some people after a very long time, we may relate to them as we have known them years ago but that may not be the case, the person may have changed completely from who he or she was. For me it keeps happening the same. 2 decades back I was a total different person, very careless on life and very timid also. If anyone would say even a little harsh to me, I would start crying. A couple of days back I met a friend of mine after a very long time, we connected over the phone, and spoke for long. We were catching up after almost 15 years, and she kept on going back in to the past of how I was. Her references of me from that time would just not stop, and on everything I would tell her, that's not me any more. Be it my lifestyle, or my other habits, everything of me has changed from then.

It's like I am totally a different version of myself, except for my looks everything else has changed in me, now if the opposite person can accept that or not is their wish. I felt that my friend felt very disconnected with this new me. She could not relate with me, she still kept going on with what I was then. Whereas for me, be it mental, emotional or spiritual, in every way I have changed and the change has been for better.
Now also when I meet some of my old colleagues, they make fun of me of what I was before. I am not sure why they do that. Probably they are not able to accept the better version of me, or they can not fathom how I have changed so much. Not everyone is like that, but there are quite a few of that kind.

We all make mistakes and grow from there and so have I, so there is no point for them to be stuck in the past about me for who I was or what I did. The reality is that I have learned and grown from all of that. My core values have had a 360 degrees shift. It's like if you keep getting beaten again and again you are forced to change and that's what has exactly happened with me as well. When I look back at my past, often I wonder, was it really me, and why on earth was I like that. But I guess, it's partly the age factor and the immaturity level. I am not saying ageing makes us wise, it is the experiences of life that makes us wise and better people.

Honestly, at this stage of life, I do not even bother what others think of me, I just bother about my own-self. What matters to me most is am I being true to myself in every aspect. I still may not be 100% perfect and at the same time I am trying to live mindfully to not do anything that goes against my core values. We do not have to prove anything to anyone about our-selves, except for our own self.

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