RE: Forgive Me Father (Steem) For I Have Sinned.
It's harder for you and me, in Europe, earning a few STEEM a post won't help us survive. Still, in the end, we will experience the riches, the relief, the difference it will make when the prices go up.
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I don't know you well, but I read and I feel like you're experience a long long road of disappointments and failures or things that fail you, and you're tired and feel like there's no end to it.
I know this feeling. I know me saying 'don't give up it will be better' sounds overly superficial in times like these. I still hope you want to see it, you want to believe things will be better, that's the most important thing.
Take care @hitmeasap, take care of you first, do the thing you think is not 'wise' but is the thing you know you need. Like take a semester off to walk around a forest for a few weeks or whatever. As I said, I don't know you, so I can't advise you. But it's often the thing that's in the back of your mind whispering to you 'If only I could... for a while...' that you should do to recharge, let some stuff go, get some strength for the challenges to come.
I always want to say more if I see someone suffer, but it's hard to say the right thing anyway, let alone digitally to someone I've never met. I mean well. Hope you'll soon see some light at the end of the tunnel.
I know it's difficult to know what to say and I don't count on anyone to tell me something that will be life changing. However, I do appreciate all form of encouragement, so I'm very thankful for your comment.
This was more about telling people how it is, and state the reasons for my recent absence, more than anything else. Even though I don't really owe Steem(it) anything, I do feel somewhat obligated to share things with my audience, especially as I've been doing it for a long period of time.
It just doesn't feel right to ignore or neglect my audience, no matter the reasons I have. I owe my audience to show my dedication, and one of the "responsibilities" I feel that I have is to share feelings and thoughts with them. No matter if it's good or bad things. That's my way of showing my gratitude for their endless support.
I'm in no position to take any form of vacation as I'm in the middle of studies, which is extremely important to me. So I just need to withstand things for as much as possible and continue to hope that things will be better. Soon. Thank you for the comment!