I knew I had to re-read your post. First time I listened to it from a text to speech software and I was a bit deconcentrated, nonetheless I feel like this post was very intense and jumped from some very difficult issues of life to some much more joyous one in a flash and because the 2 were so contrasting I knew I didn't had understood all of it correctly.

I've seen all the nice messages you received and re-steemed. Stay strong my friend! You can do it!