Make Dreams Bigger Than Fears. #philippines Is Really Improving! Plus, Steemgigs Witness Update!
I broke down so fatally in the few days that flew past! My life has been tougher than tough!
The difference is: "i don't get to say of these things out" as these days, i feel "words" aren't anylonger, "outlets" enough.
An entire tired being in the rubble and sometimes the only exertion you can develop is "an arm outstretched".
My steemgigs witness broke down in the last few days as well! It didn't miss a block but it wasn't publishing price feed for some days.
The "steemgigs witness" now fixed but i am not.
I am here though because regardless of all this fight, i will try to be here. It's my life now, so its all good!
You guys need to stay awesome. Stay great!
Even at times when the above words feel very much like vanity, it's not exactly about us. Its never been!
Infact, if i came into this world alone, without any ties, then it would have been all the more vanity. Quitting dead easier!
Steemgigs witness got updated! 19.2 edition is what has been recommended to be next and it 19.2 it has become.
Updating it was pretty simple and fast and required running one line of command!
Live price feed also being published and all that was required to fix that, was a one-time linux command;
"lf"Life Update!
I have one more dream i now carry too. My mama's dreams!
I am speechless! But i fight to stay empowered, so that even my "speechless" is allowed to have worth.
How i do wish, my life was updateable just like it was done with the witness. Simply run code and transcend reality. It's dead tough! "My life is!"
Some readily available things that i don't have that you may have!
- "Hahaha"; could easily mean shone teeth. "Luxury in my case!"
- Pillow: A fluffy stuff to hug tight. "Far-fetched in my case!"
- Hugs: Chest-to-Chest; in heart-to-heart smooch. "Dead scarce in my case!"
- Air: Free precious commodity. "Two-gasps-for-one-gulp in my case!"
- Sigh of relief: Moment of respite, with gulp of "whole" soothing fresh air. "I am yet to experience this!"
- Goodnews: News that joycifies the heart. "
- Feelings: Ability to feel a moment; ability to feel touch etc; "i have lost this!".
- Relaxation: Muscles, nerves, skin, brain in mellow-mode; "don't know what this is!"
- True Sleep: "I have forgotten how to!"
- Un-pain: "My pain is 24/7!"
- etc.......
I am still very speechless for now so i will pause.....
(As for parents, even as they crumble, i am not opportune to hold them close. But can i at least call them to hear their voice? I can't!)
Its too complicated! Its too complicated!
I love them like crazy & they love me like crazy. This love skins me alive!
"Depth" is too hard; it haunts you! "Shallowness" on the other hand is a very no-go-area! So, "depth" it is and i peer & peer and it haunts me and eats me up.
Have i exaggerated?
No energy to generate exaggeration!
Do i have an outlet?
Even "words" have deserted me! "Tears" have deserted me! I pray to Jehovah but again, words & tears have deserted me.
Can i still fight?
It's all i still do!
I am dead tired!
"Terry how are you?".
This is my hardest FAQ because the answer is never a "fine".
How to keep the fire burning?
Look at me and draw some inspiration!
"I do have one of the toughest lives!" I do not do comparisons as i speak for myself and this i know.
It is not always about diagnosis, it is more about the state of the human. (mental, psycological, depth, story, etc)
How Much Beauty Is #philippines Already Creating?
The number of steemians from the Philippines, is growing steadily and efforts are in place for new entries.
Yes, everyone new or old, plays a role in steemit growth!
Intense curation to help this community has helped as well. Apart from strengthening the existing communities and fortifying our conviction in the potential of steemit, it teaches newer steemians how to curate as well and how to tend to newer communities of friends who join steemit.
The process of on-boarding new steemians is way easier now, with curation efforts, comments, communities and various chat outlets and this gives steemians way more conviction, when it comes to inviting in, new steemians!
The quality and frequency of posts on #philippines is rising and its becoming a beauty. Plus, the talent is shining forth.
There is an untold amount of talent here, stemming from the Philippines. Much of this talent had stayed hidden, however, steemit manages to enliven and these hid talents are now shining forth.
There have been recent contests helping in this regard e.g the recent art contests, #steemgigs, story contests etc
e.g WOW I Won 3 Drawing Contests this week! | THANK YOU!
And more to come.......
As once i am able to come out with more words; i have great ideas in mind to stir more community excitement, enhance steemit growth, unleash new creativity etc and i will try to pour them forth.
Let's try to give birth to more beautiful moments together and store some of these beauty on the steem blockchain, for the generations for which we actually do these things.
"Again, it has never been about us!"
"It has never been only about rice and beans". For there are deeper things; "life in itself!".
Yes, in the places where i am at; there is no inspiration, no hugs, no pillows, no surprises, no goodnews, no nothing!
Even 'free air', is 'two gasps for one gulp'.
Regardless however, even my entire tired being tries to exude power, with the loving aim being, "to empower you"; to Re-tell you that you are everything; "you are the very best!"
We are genius!
I am glad to find a new school on the internet upon which i can manage to have this voice!
Yes, life is pretty much un-understandable.....
Even when the going is un-tough, something still feels missing but hey there, @dreemit, Valery, Terry, Ajayi, Tokunbo, Christian, @ekitcho Elephteros, @oluwoleolaide Jimmy, Rolland, Kelly, Dwayne Wade, Lionel Messi, Christiano Ronaldo, Beyonce Knowles, Beyonce, Ian, @anotherjoe Keith, Kent, Khloe Kardashian, Chloe, @kus-knee Ariana, Ariana Grande, @donkeypong Angie, Flores, @hanshotfirst Cole, Joe, Krishna, @papa-pepper Priyanka, Chopra, @benjojo, Salma, @stellabelle, Vergara, Sophia, @giantbear Shakira, Schwarzenegger Arnold: Today is a special day!
Whatever our needs are, we just can attain them. We were made beautifully with eyes to see colors (not limited to black and white) and ears to tell you that a 'Mariah Carey's high note is not the same as a dolphin trying to squeal a Shakira tune.
Well, we can do it. We can walk again. We can chew diamonds. We can ....... etc.
Jehovah be with us all in Jesus' name amen.
Your boy Terry
My steemgigs witness lost valuable vote from @liberosist, indicating that as witness, you have got to stay up-to-date. The lost-vote helped matters as it reminded me to check on my witness and do the necessary updates.
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OR
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Everyone has something to offer!
I wish you much energy - keep up the good work (but don't forget to relax if necessary)! :)
i have very tough times. it is beyond me. talk soon
@surpassingoogle I hope things are getting better for you my friend. Thats why you need your friends, to pick you up when life kicks you down. I am starting a series of positive daily meditations, I have yesturday and Today. Do you think you could have a look and see if if would help others within the community. It will be daily and adifferent life topic. Please feel better, and lean on us( your community) :)
You WON'T be alone. You have the whole Philippines Support! Thank you for EVERYTHING! Am sorry for everything that you are going through right now. (I really am!... no sugar coating!)
The Filipinos love you! You are a Filipino, remember?!!
You cannot give up now... I am with you all the way. when I say "me" everyone that supports me will support you!
I'd like to say more but words are not enough. I forgive and trust again because YOU! am not sure if I should put a smiley face or a sad face. I am celebrating another beautiful life. I hope to celebrate it with everyone that went through a lot.
I want to keep writing but words are not enough!....
I will just do it through my DEEDS. I hope you get well soon. I am here to help, always. We care about you!
<3
Gil - your loving star.
Thank you for the love
Yes, we LOVE you Sir Terry!
^^ Just Keep Steeming...
XOXO
emonemolover
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Thank you switie. Much love in return
I got clumsy again! see above? I just edited it lol! just human hahaha
purepinay is clumsy but classy... hehe
Hello Terry, you are right the title says it all Make Dreams Bigger Than Fears. Every time I do something new. I fear that I might not be able to accomplish it, but I still try my best in doing it. I realized so many things my hardships are nothing compared to what you go through. This gives me inspiration on learning, and doing things that I fear not able to accomplish. Rest assured I am doing all I can to achieve what we are building.
Life is really hard, we fight our own battles but always remember you are not alone. We are here for you. Thank you for giving Inspiration, and Support throughout even though you are experiencing hard times. I continue to include you in my prayers. Just continue to stay strong man.
Thank you alot
You truly are an inspiration to many. We know of your special love for #philippines, but I see you all over the developing countries most specially. I wouldn't tell you I know how you feel, because I don't. I hope things get better for you and your parents/family soon.
This is some inspiring post for someone who seems to be struggling for inspiration. This speaks volumes about going on and never giving up. I want to keep telling you the same, not that you need it, for what it is worth, the community needs it; needs you. Not talking about your upvote, that is only one of the many ways you contribute to the community. It will be hypocrisy to say I do not want it, I never get frustrated for not getting it in some post though. I know that when you are letting your power recharge; both voting power and you human energy. When you are offline, you are most probably busy doing other things for the community.
My wish is for you to get some time for yourself, for your family no matter how complicated, for your humanity, for your "Terry" to us you are more than @surpassinggoogle. I will tell you what you always try hard to remind us all about ourselves.
"YOU ARE AWESOME!" Never forget.
I pray it is not late.
I am grateful!
@surpassinggoogle hi sir"terry" i have new article hope you will check it out.it's about our problem here on our country..and some nations as well..
thanks and more steem power to you sir terry.
kindly see my post..
about the main problem on our country #phillipines-please click it here-
Be considerate this is no place to promote. But it is all good. You be good kind sir.
We call Him by different names, but will add that, you and your dear parents to my prayers.
awesome
Hmm...I am just speechless, Terry, to read through all these challenges that you are going through. Having lived a life of pain before my surgery in 2015, I can empathize when someone talks about pain. Right now, I don't feel happy at all reading that you are not even strong enough to talk or write. I wish I could talk to you on your mobile phone, not this manner of communication. The challenge of your parents is also there complicating the whole issue, but I know that there is only one, whom we can rely on for strength, every time, especially in times like this. He is Jehovah, God almighty. I believe that he is the impossibility specialist.
Surely, there is an underlying cause for the 24/7 pain. While I advise you to work with your doctors/physician on the best way to manage the situation, it would be good that you try using **the miracle molecule, Magnesium, to deal with that pain. Get it in form of epsom salt (MgSo4) and do a body soak in it's solution, not just a foot soak as I usually do.
Please, stay strong and keep fighting. I am sending you my love and prayers.
@maryfavour
Thank you for so much love. When you hear my story, you will understand even better. For now prayers, especially for ma parents
Terry, you are welcome. Ok dear. Please, worry less about the whole situation. I have put your parents in my parents, asking for God's mercy and divine healing upon them and on you as well. Draw strength from my testimony. He came in the form of a surgeon in a dream, a few months before my surgery to operate me. It was like I was in trance. No wonder, my surgery in 2015, though quite complicated, was successful. I am a survivor. I am alive to share my testimony. You too will live to share your testimony of Jehovah's faithfulness, mercy and healing. Please, when you have strength later today or even now, pray with Senior prophet TB Joshua in SCOAN.Know that you are not alone that I am praying for you. I will go and look prayer partners who will join hands with me to pray. We are not in charge of the situation. God is. I am sending you hugs, love and prayers. It is well.
All received
Filipinos have many reasons to stay at Steemit and I can see a fast-growing community because of the high volume contents uploaded per day. Sir @surpassinggoogle, one of the reasons why some Filipinos love to be here is upon your encouragement, powerful deeds and words. I am dreaming that one day I can write like you but no one can do it than you because you are unique. I love to read all of your writings that I can learn many things psychologically. Praying for your family, Sir. God bless you. I know you've prayed Him and He listens. He will also bless you that one day you can find a special someone that will hug and comfort you like a pillow because you deserve it.
So much love in your comment.
Thank you
Reading your words shows me that you are going through tough times. By reaching out to help others, while you are in need for change, you are doing the right thing, even though it's not that easy to do. Sometimes, after we did all we could, and beyond, it's ok to pause and "do nothing".
"Do nothing" can be two things: 1) literally that or 2) step back but keep our faith active that somewhere behind the scenes/clouds/wherever it is, The One we have faith in, is working on our behalf.
Your words, even when you feel that they are empty, or weak, still can be powerful and inspiring for somebody else. Words, spoken or unspoken, are powerful.
You grasped it all
You are an instrument of God, take care always Sir Terakos. God bless you always!
Very powerful comment
By the way, here my new ARTICLE.
Now this is when one is speaking from the soul. Your stress is not an enviable one, but the motivation it brings is timed honoured.
i hope this is not coming late, but bear in mind that you are loved and respected. More grace and power to your elbow. Welldone sir!
You grasped
Very awesome post! Hopefully more people will come to speak those truths you're talking about!
I value this comment.
Thank you alot!
I knew I had to re-read your post. First time I listened to it from a text to speech software and I was a bit deconcentrated, nonetheless I feel like this post was very intense and jumped from some very difficult issues of life to some much more joyous one in a flash and because the 2 were so contrasting I knew I didn't had understood all of it correctly.
I've seen all the nice messages you received and re-steemed. Stay strong my friend! You can do it!