It is amazing the coping mechanisms we put in place when we are children, I do believe that our minds and bodies are always trying to find ways to help us deal, we sometimes become physically sick when we have been avoiding our self both physically and mentally, yet so many do not make that connection and just wish to treat the symptoms rather than deal with the real reason, as you have said it is easier to just keep going, but we really should listen to ourselves. It is great that you have identified ways in order to help you keep connected, being mindful is so important, allowing ourselves to take that time and telling ourselves that we are enough is so important. I commend you on your self awareness and thank you for sharing your wisdom with us, it really is truly great to really know yourself, I feel so many do not.