Misery

in #poem24 days ago

My dad is dead
A genocide in Palestine
My cat is dying
The vet bills are expensive
My acting career is not being a career right now
I'm tired
My body hurts
I'm having trouble motivating myself to do anything about the things that I could maybe do something about
Like, a lot of trouble
My dad is still dead
My mother sold the farm
We spend more money than we make
My kid is being punished at school for things that we've taught him are fun and fine
Because they are fun and fine, and if they aren't fun for everyone, that's an opportunity to guide him and problem-solve with him, not to just punish
My cat's imminent death is not assured, but the solutions are unlikely to work and are expensive, so we have to make decisions and it feels pretty terrible to make life and death decisions for a beloved pet based on financial concerns
People are homeless and struggling and can't get human health care
The planet is experiencing weather events due to catastrophic climate change that is only going to get worse
I feel useless
My dad is still dead