i often find myself just grabbing both pills at once and swallowing them before the person offering the choice even realizes what happened... the result is both awe and also a dark realization... we are complex systems, trying to defeat the inevitable chaos... are we just pitri-dishes inside the lab called "universe" ? and the universe is really concerned with the same problem we are? survival? still there is awe, I guess we need intensives like 'awe' in order to reach beyond our own survival... and look for the survival of the universe... and i'm not even high LOL