Well said, @wakeupkitty.pal, I understand every word you said for always, Now, I let his children settle the problem. Yes ,I cried a lot but it helped me nothing and just made me weak out of focus. I told them and they knew the real situation I have now. They didn't ask me because I told them about my situation. I learned a lesson and it is much more than a learning. I been through a lot of sorrow but I am no longer crying lime before. You can see me improving my connection mag engagement. I woke up already and I will see how they grew and get put from the problems. A little bit sad honestly but I kept my mind stronger. I have no where to go and God knows it. I am already softly killing myself but its not yet the time to surrender but make th realization how I feel now. Thank you for always givinge reminders I am still lucky to have friends who understood me. It is really appreciated. I will be stronger than ever.