I understand to the fullest what you mean. If it comes to it only animals don't care what we look like unlike people but good or not good looking - if it comes to it everyone struggles and we all hope for love, real love or at least people who like us for what we are and we can have a good laugh with. Do they exist?

Perhaps but you won't find many since today everyone is behind a screen and not willing to invest in relationships of any kind.

More is needed than good looks only. There are plenty of good looking people I find creepy (and others to) which has to do with a certain attitude. Being an introvert will not help in your situation (or shy) but if you would be an extreme extrovert people easily find you annoying as well so what is left? A dose of luck?

For sure you have heard of Stephen Hawking and I just read an article about his life. He did live way longer than expected and has been married twice and more than just a few months. How did he do that? What kind of marriage had he or had those women?

The article I read is in Dutch perhaps you can translate it?
https://www.quest.nl/natuur/geologie/a25627349/stephen-hawking-biografie/

Like you I delete many photos too. I can't save everything but I also don't see any need to post everything. Make it yourself a bit easier friend.

It's good to hear the dialysis is more bearable.
How is your back?

Blessings to you
♥️♥️