On The Spiritual Journey

Hello randomly selected people of the virtual matrix reality we call the internet. I am new to steem it and found out about this website through a person I subscribe and watch on youtube: Avii LSD. I have basically started a youtube channel as a way to connect with my family that I have left because of certain living conditions that has made me sick in a way I lost all my happiness. Just to say I am glad the ways things have played out because I wouldn't be on the journey that I am on today. I am looking for deeper secrets, meanings, and inner truths about this human experience we call "reality." The major tipping point that made me leave home was having my mind just completely open up and I started questioning everything I know, leading me to the spiritual studies my life has been involved in for quite sometime. So having all this time on the road living in a car had me really question life in general. I have traveled all of Canada this past summer looking for answers, first leaving for Victoria BC, then coming back to visit only some of my family members and I collected some of my mail (because I lost some of my identification) Then I drove out to Halifax to visit an uncle I had out there. (We kind of bonded because my grandfather/ his dad, is just something else) So I stayed at his place for a couple of weeks, helped out when I could. And I was seriously considering starting a fresh start, a clean slate out in Nova Scotia, until his wife, my aunt started interrogating me about what I'm doing with my life. I saw that she didn't believe in me and she had a very closed mind, and that made me have a nervous break down because it felt like no one can see the same vision as me, and no one really wanted me around because I was some sort of liability to them. So this is when I made a choice to never accept help from anyone because it leads to, almost always, the person in my face and forcing me to tell them all the plans I have and honestly, all I want to do in life is to be happy, find my passion, and not work for someones business and be truly independent. Well this is where I am now, figuring out how to survive while living life on my own terms, doing some temporary work here, some temp work there. I really learned how to budget my money well and live on a low cost. I started doing youtube as a hobby, just to get all my ideas and thoughts that were trapped inside my mind out there. And I thought, I am seeing all these amazing views and I'm traveling, I might as well do both. So its been 7 months now I've been living in a car and I have to say I have it all figured out. I am following my inner spirit, and meeting new friends along the way, and i just cant wait to see what kind of person I'll be tomorrow.