I hear you. Sometimes pushing yourself physically can clear out the emotional stuff, or at least keep the intensity at bay—give the intensity a way to move through. I've been having a bit of a rough go with things mentally/emotionally this past while, too, and it sure helps to get on my yoga mat or crank up the music and have a solo dance party. Being productive helps as well, because at least I've done something, right? Hang in there. Also, high fives for kicking your own ass, just be kind to yourself, too, okay? ;)