This post resonates with me and I often feel the desire to drive, too. I don't find it selfish to take the time to reflect on one's life and to seek the peace that is sometimes lacking in our day-to-day grind. I really like the quotes that you chose and interspersed with your narrative. It is true that we don't always grow up with the nurture and support that we need for later in life. It is detrimental to us draw our heads like turtles and ignore our emotional turmoil. I resonate with:

I just want to keep on driving until I find myself in another land where reality is suspended, where I can find myself understood by a stranger and welcomed into a life not my own, one where people love me for who I am.

Part of finding that place is by being vulnerable and allowing people to know who you really are. That is the hard part. You've got gone a long way of opening the door into your soul with his post. I left me with chills, maybe because I've been there, too. hugs