RE: [Journal] How I Broke Through The Barrier of Dreams // Cognitive and Disassociation Techniques
This is without a doubt, the best thing I've read on Steemit. You are an incredible writer and sharing your experience with trauma felt incredibly intimate, visceral and raw. I know what it's like to deal with long-term trauma and while I haven't used this specific technique, I've been lucky enough to work with some amazing people who have taught me a lot about how to deal with it. That being said, I realized that the big ones -- the trauma that we carry for a lifetime doesn't go away, but it doesn't have to rule me. I had an experience this summer when I was hiking alone in New Zealand and cried so much I was convinced I could die of dehyradation and heartbreak. But I didnt.
These words "I am a burnt out damaged husk but there is something growing inside of me, and every day I nurture it it gets bigger. So I feel like a child and an old person simultaneously" ring so true I shuddered and read the lines twice.
I look forward to reading more.
Thanks so much @sassysandg, trauma can make us do some really strange and terrifying things - like cry so many tears or have the emotional pain hurt so bad that indeed, we do feel like we're going to die or that death would be a relieving alternative.
I am lucky to have a person in my life who helps me with this sort of thing. I am frustrated with myself that I am still functionally "broken" but I know I can't dwell on that if I want to get better. I'm glad you found me.
Don't be frustrated with yourself. We are all broken and find ways to patch, heal, break, and patch again. You're a talented writer. My therapist told me there's a lot of healing that happens through the process of writing. I've found my love of writing again as well.