Hey @veryspider like I said I am just going through a spell - I am just using Steemit to vent- and I may after all be writing a novel or nonfiction book - not sure- but it’s ok - i needed to be cut down to right size - as much as I would like to be a big shot artist- if I am it will only be after many years of hard work... it doesn’t come easy to me like it does to some so I need to just accept that and get on with my life - looking at the positives of what I DO have- but thanks for your uplifting comments- very helpful. Blessings!