This is definitely a first world problem, I am sure of it. People used to have a purpose in life, a ready path to follow, get a job, get a partner, make a family, take care of the family. In a way, it was easier that way, but of course they had different struggles. We are more free to find our own path, and in turn, more free to be fucking lost. 😅 I hope you get out of the bad times soon and figure out something positive to do with your time.