taking a moment for an outside hard reset, feels like it’s been a while.

having stepped through the usual steps that i have each morning i found myself wanting to make sure that i had a decent hard reset for the rest of the day — football is later on and i’m ahead at the moment with my chores.

i’ve not been writing or making, tidying or looking after myself recently and i’m not really sure what that is — one thing i do know is that the weather is good and i should be sitting outside in it for at least a short time each day while it is like this to enjoy it even it annoys the bugs that i’m in their space.

my head and my eyes feel pretty heavy today i have to say, maybe it’s just that early start hit me for six (literally) this am, i need to go back over the fitbit data to see what kinda of hours i’ve been getting in — i have a sneaky feeling it’s not been that great.

i realise in weather like this that i have to be more measured about what i do and when — i can’t just now go on an afternoon of sorting out stuff in the van because i’ll tire myself out and turn into a sweat fest — what i can do however i make sure everything is clear for me to make food for lunch and later, tidy up a few bits and clean down surfaces before sitting down to watch something while on the voice chat to @dayleeo

you can get so locked into doing the same thing over and over you don’t realise that maybe it’s the similarity of over and over that get’s frustrating and really you just need to shake that up — maybe it’s because i don’t really know how to enjoy summers.

as a kid i was constantly streaming with hay fever and so whenever i went out it was always met with a scratching roof of my mouth and tears streaming down my face, not enjoyable — i felt like the only person who could not enjoy summer until i came across antihistamine in my teenager years, it’s not secret that winter is my favourite season!

meditation is helping to put those hard forks in my day thou, i need it too otherwise i’d never pull myself from tabs and easily get distracted by the constant hum of the computer fan and the need to be always connected in some way - the most damaging component i never saw coming as a kid with a modem, that we would spend so much the on these things.

just as i watch a few butterflies dance across the grass a black dog appeared on a lead with a gentleman behind, i’d have never seen that sitting inside — we miss out so much in life when we are not present outside of the screen, it’s like we are living that VAR life with the world looking back.

i did achieve a few things on my list today and i feel this little outside reset has had some value, i’m gonna go and do my pots now and make a massive big pot of pasta that i can sit and snack for the rest of the day — resources maybe stretched right now but my resolve is stronger than ever.

i hope wherever you are in the world you are taking time out to wonder at this amazing thing called life.

peace,
da mouser.

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