Finding Home To Rest

I'm lost in my own comfort zone here in my own room here at my house..

I feel lost I don't know why

I feel empty..

May be because I know that your slipping away

Cause that is what I prayed

Let you go to end the loop I'm in with our relationship

And now its empty..

I just want a home where I could be me accept me for what I am

I just want a home who will hug me and tell me everything will be okay

I want a home where I could rest..

I'm letting you go even in my heart it will be filled with emptiness..

A big hole will be there
a regret and full of what ifs will remembered

Yes it will be difficult it will not be back again

I will take a risk even I'm not sure if you would be the last stop..

If I may not find a home then its fine..

I will not go back I will stay in the road and just enjoy the journey..

I'm hoping that you might find the right person that will be your home.. someone who will make you fully happy, someone who will love you, someone who's willing to wait for your someone you will really love the one that you will see that your gonna marry...the one who will be the mother of your children..

Sorry if it is not me.. I'm not the one you have prayed for.. May be you are my answered prayer but I'm letting you go.. I will try the uncertainty than your plans that more vague and impossible..

I'm sorry but I wait for a long time.. I waited for the right person, I thought it is you.. but like me you have doubts too you are not sure on me..

It's better if one of us will let go.. move on so that we could find the right match for us..

I just want to rest with someone I could be comfotable with someone who is willing to stay, love me for what I am, sure of me, dont only have plans for me but will give me a family no buts don't care of consequences.. just love me and marry me pray with me! JUST YOU AND ME AND GOD WILL DO THE REST🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

I'M LOST CAUSE I THOUGHT I'M WITH MY DESTINATION BUT THEN I'M IN A MISDIRECTION!

THANK YOU FOR THE TIME, EFFORTS AND EVERYTHING! THANK YOU FOR ACCOMODATING ME! THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR FAMILY EVEN FOR A WHILE!

THANK YOU FOR THE JOY AND HAPPINESS YOU LET ME EXPERIENCED FOR A WHILE.. THANK YOU FOR THE PAIN AND HEARTACHES I UNDERSTAND MYSELF MORE.. OVERTHINKING, EXPECTATIONS, REALITY REALLY SUCKS.. I'M OKAY NOW I'M HEALING..

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS DOYY KO!

MAHAL NA MAHAL PO KITA SOBRA.. I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT ALWAYS.. I WANT TO HUG YOU.. KISS YOU.. I WANT TO GO IN YOUR WORK BRING YOU FOOD.. (In my imagination when we get married I want to prepare food for you, I will wait for you when you get home even its too late in the evening, I will hug you in our sleep, I will learn different kind of siopao for you healthy ones if you like, I've already prepared the name of our kids but it will just remain here in my dreams now just in my dreams)

I'M BLESSED WITH YOU BEING MY MISDIRECTION.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..

I'm sorry if I couldn't tell you this I'm afraid that I'm just the one falling.. I want to spend more time with you, I want to hug and kiss you.. I don't know how.. Everytime we meet we are always in public places.. just pictures no hug.. when there were opportunity I dont missed my chance even it will last a seconds or minutes.. Sorry if I'm clingy.. I really want to be super clingy but I guess you don't like that so I remain stiff, shy and so on..
You have walls, standards and I'm sorry if I don't fit in that's why until now your still not sure of me.. I understand you want children and you are unsure that I could give you that.. I'm sorry.. may be I really can't.. may be this is also the reason in letting you go.. for you to find the right woman for you the one suitable and more you like.. the obe you will never think twice of leeting go and someone you will marry.. the one you will priority, the one you will choose over an over again over everything else.. unlike me that you always take for granted..

Sorry for loving you this much over this short period of time.. Fairy tales are not true there is no happy ending but I'm praying that one of us will have especially you.. I hope you find her.. .
While I'm praying for mine I'm praying for yours too.. I accepted the fact that it will never be me..

I will learn to love myself again.. and I will make it my home for the rest of mylife..

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DOYYY KO! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! KAHIT HINDI TAYO HANGGANG DULO!

SALAMAT! MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA SOBRA I WISH I COULD HUG AND KISS YOU RIGHT NOW!

FIRST AND LAST GOODBYE HUG ANG KISS!

I LOVE YOU! I WILL PRAY FOR YOU! FOR A HAPPY ENDING!

I'M OKAY! I WILL BE HAPPY DON'T WORRY!

SAYONARA DOYY KO! MAHAL KITA!

someday I hope you could read this..