Nostradamic dreams

The patterns of the natives are different from the days before ... maybe something happened or maybe its just fear

fear of the future they created for themselves , fear of the dark ... whatever it is, if its groendal i dont care and since 2016 everything here feels like a trap or coercion anyway. I'll never trust anyone again in this lifetime

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Belgian I.T. ... from stores to banks to government, fundamentally speaking het beste onderwijs ter wereld of which nothing ever reaches the top 100 but the KUL every seven moonshine years, delivers on its name ...

"Your profile does not exist" after logging in. If this persists please call (during office hours) ... the site host has 24/7, the government does not.

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You have to log out because you're logged in ("profile does not exist" though)

"Logout is not available, sorry" If this persists please call ...

luckily i know how to delete cookies .. the addamses would have had a nervous breakdown already

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How much does that site cost yearly ? O big boss of the country who knows everything ? and more ?

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I had a Nostradamic dream, thats actually what i wanted to record but ofcourse i open my eyes and where am i ?

HERE, in this place i tried to get out of since im 20 and wanted to be away from since im 15 .. HERE is where i am

it immediately starts trying to wurm itself into my head

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Some kind of Venetian scenery but buildings 10 or 50 times as large , everything around is falling and collapsing. The CGI is amazing .. 3D surround 16k uhdr ++ holografic ,

i never seen even a small building collapse so how i can see this apocalyptic sight i have no idea, its really detailed and vivid ...

There's people around me, a tower falls over, i hear someone say "i the tower falls down completely the island will crack in half"

they definitely said crack not split ...

I hear them around me but i see no one

Then i'm on a raft in a huge place of water, there's other people on the raft but i don't see them, i know they're there though, Huge structures are crumbling all round, Pieces the size of appartment buildings are falling off the huge buildings left and right ... its more vivid then daytime real life

Then i'm in this living room and i see the last cat come out of a hole in the ground while the ginger elder i havent seen in a while sits before it, ... like he's waiting

They both look good, shiney and healthy

I'm glad i saw my cat again once more ...

Then i'm awake ...

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Nothing like the dark breakfast at 4 a.m. food tastes twice as good .. all silent and no humans

All i can remember but dreams fade fast, most of the time you dont remember by the time you wake up

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I don't have that much extended REM sleep anymore , the pattern i settled into that actually works to get most menialities in the day done every day and prevents the disintegration from expanding faster than it normally does has two cycles that dont last long enough so the only times it happens is when i exhaust straight into it, like i drop into the REM zone straight away when phasing out.

This was heavy though, i never had "normal" (freudian ?) dreams as far as i can remember though things like running around looking for the exit or sitting in a car without a steering wheel have occurred more than once.

Mostly it's super abstract

Its good to see my friend again even if my little girl wasnt with it its a blessing already. And as long as i have one tear when i see them they're still with me.

I have a part of their soul that stayed with me and they took a part of mine. That way we can find each other in the sea of being, no matter how long it takes before we get there again and no matter how long we drift and float ...

I look up at the sky, Bo'cchan-kun is patrolling the garden, looking for rats and invaders and mostly things that move in the dark,

My friends, the stars , i know they're there, they always are but the clouds are hiding them. It feels like i've been here before.

I dont know how many times ive been here but from overthere it must be never long until i'm back. From down here a lifetime but

its like i been here so many times over so much time, i'm way older than this body.

And ive seen the future too ... maybe that too is in the past and this is just another round ... the system figuring itself out until finally it has the key

to close the door and

end it ...

experiment over

homo-centrism is such a drag ... im glad we dont suffer from it but looking around

where do they get this idea that the chosen ones are stuck on a ball of iron thats SO far away they'll never see the heavens again ?

I come inside before my muscles in my shoulders and neck get too cold

i type the second part of this and

its almost time to cycle ...

In a world two streets wide ...

you certainly did a number on my life, thing, whatever you are and whoever thought it could control me

another one of their illusions

how would you control the master system ? you're just a particle to it

a quantum among quanta

ever asked yourself why do they call it quantum leap when quanta are the smallest possible parts

thinking in language slows everything down , if you ever HAD that quantum leap

i think around here im supposed to use german depressionist language :

"aha-erlebnis" ?

it comes without words and exists in the next moment after the last one

moment is not something you can define in units of time either

thinking without words, as one who was born detached my subconscious might work differently , i think sometimes NORMAL people

... their subconscious is the part that thinks without words, but since they're stuck inside they dont notice

we live in the third person, I am HERE, the brain is there, then im THERE but the brain is still there its separate

the sub-conscious is lower than the part that thinks without words

words are so slow

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anyway