Am I a mermaid? The story of how I always end up back home
People have the wrong idea that if you live near the sea you're probably always at the beach, enjoying the sun light and the sound of the waves. The truth is, If you live near to a beach, you're most likely tired of it. That was also my case. As a teenager, I used to dream about leaving my hometown. I just couldn't wait to finish high school and go live an independent life in Bucharest, far away from my town and all the people here.
Finally, the big day arrived, and here I was at the train station, ready to start a new life. But something didn't feel right, and I remember I cried so much when I said goodbye to my mother. When I got on the train, I looked out the window and for the first time, I somehow saw the beauty of my city and I asked myself "Why did I want to leave?". That's the thing, you only realize how much you love something after you let it go. The first year of college was incredibly hard, I got involved in many activities so I wouldn't think about it so much. I also suffered from depression, so keeping my mind busy was the best thing I could do in those hard times. The problem was, by having so many things to do and so little money, I was only visiting my hometown once in a few months. Imagine the feeling I had when I left Bucharest for the summer. Arriving home, it was like I was seeing the sea for the first time in my life. I had rediscovered my first love again.
Being in the last year of college, I surprisingly had a lot more free time, and as soon as I get the chance, I hop on the train and come back home. But being here is different now. A few years ago, I was so bored by this city. Now, I feel the need to go out and simply walk and enjoy the view. I feel like a child, I'm always looking out the window trying to discover something new and interesting. I have learned to appreciate the little things my hometown has to offer. I've almost finished my studies and I'm in a position in which I don't know what to do next. Should I stay in Bucharest and try to continue my "new life" there? Or maybe I should come back home and start a new life here, but this time a life that I enjoy and appreciate? What do you think?
I quite envy you this place being your home. Perhaps, I am even in the same sittuation as you were before the colledge. I live in village in Czech Republic. Beautiful forests and country side all around. Yet, I look forward to studying in Prague, the capital city. It might also be, because I am to be involved in politics in the future, but I am sure in advance, that I will miss the advantages of living in a village.
In your position, from what you write in the article, I would opt for a middle way. You can travel to cities. I guess you don't study anything like 'school of life' or 'philosophy', so you will have more financial ressources, once you start to earn money, and some travels will become fairly affordable for you.
But I judge your intellect only by the fact you joined Stemmit. So I dunno...
I do wish to get to a point in which I will have enough money to be able to travel the world, but before that, I want to visit my country and get to know it. The question I'm asking is, after I finish my studies, where should I live and work? I know that Bucharest is full of opportunities, but maybe I could make a living in my hometown for a while :D
It is probably too in advance to think about it. Current circumstances and conditions may change.
It's not that soon to think about it, I only have a few months of college left :D But I guess I'll just go with the flow and see where life takes me
Oh. I didn't expect you to be in your last grade of college at the age of 21. Studies in Czech probably work differently, or you study something shorter, than usual disciplines are.
You can go to employment department in your hometown to see if they have some job for you and decide up to that. But I can't give further advice on that as I know you and your priorities a little. I am sure, you will have opportunities to change your mind in the future :)
Do what really makes you happy! I believe that both places have something to offer. There are pros and cons. Think carefully!
Thank you! You are right, both places have a lot to offer and if that's what it takes, then I'll just move from one place to another until I find my peace and happiness! :D
Beautiful post, I never came close to appreciating the tiny town I grew up in until I left and came back. As I'm currently preparing to move away again my advice is continue to explore opportunities in your new home as you grow, while applying the same gratitude that you discovered from returning home+you can always go back later:)
Thank you for your comment! As I said, we never appreciate what we have, until we let it go. And you're right, I can always come back. And so can you! I hope you achieve all your goals and you find happiness! Good luck! :D
This post is amazing!
Thank you, I'm really glad you enjoyed it :D