See this my view

I have this amazing viewpoint is right outside of my door some times, there is too much light, when I wake up, is literally like being exposed to electric radiation.
I feel that is my new hangover status, I have to mush illumination sources, my head hurts, my eye flinches even with them close, I feel the blood vessels on my eyes on the back of my head, like an exposed nerve ending on decaying teeth being restored.

I have a lot to do, but I feel like I'm on dessert look for a way to rest but I can't.
A sense of responsibility is also hitting on the back, but what can I do? I can't concentrate, even writing here as become an effort of not giving up the criativism.

I know that I have to overcome this status quo but I'm alone, lost, jobless, my friend has distancing of me, my family is stuck in the same house for too long, almost always the same conversations, almost because we are all creatives.
How do you feel? Are you feeling ok?