Mate, google dengue fever papaya leaves...this is what they swear by here in Thailand and here they rarely go to hospital for dengue which is strange because here they normally go for any little thing!
Mourn your Mum, give yourself some space and wake up breathing everyday. You have a right to breathe and live and remember that every pain we go through is temporary.
My love and thoughts as always, are with you and your family mate.