Everything was going just well till I turned 18. Even though I just clocked 18, I looked much older than my age. I could pass as a 22-23year old girl. I was tall and have matured looks with well-rounded breasts. I was in Anita’s room chilling. I was bored and I decided to visit her. Chidinma travelled home on exit (compulsory for all students). I borrowed Anita’s laptop to watch some movies. That was the moment that my water broke and pushed out the amorous desires inside me. I stumbled upon some pornographic videos in one of the folders in her laptop. Out of curiosity, I opened one of the files, and for the first time in my life, I saw a naked man. Wow! My eyes popped out and I tried to cover my mouth from screaming. I have had a faint idea about the parts of the body during my primary school days and about the reproductive organs during my biology classes but seeing this video, came with a rush of ideas into my head and body. I suddenly started feeling uneasy watching it. I had to plug in an ear piece to avoid other girls from hearing the sex moans.
The guy in the video, tall, dark and muscular. He was smoking hot with six packs and his manhood was visibly big with thick veins popping out. I suddenly became wet watching him. I saw things I have never seen before. I started yearning for a man’s touch suddenly. The guy was good…the way he made sweet love to the lady, tickled my fancy. That was how I ended up watching several sex videos on Anita’s laptop and started feeling uneasy. I was restless and couldn’t put my mind on something else. How did Anita get all these videos?” I asked myself. The school management can expel her if one of the hall reps find out about this. She looked way too innocent to have all these…I counted and there were roughly 35pornographic videos under different pseudo-names. Some were under the folder titled ‘chioma Jesus’, ‘Gospel songs’, ‘The trial and cruxification of Jesus’ etc. I was amazed and smiled at her ingenuity. Meanwhile, she has been washing her clothes downstairs while I was in her room and I am sure she least expects me to find the location of those videos. “What could she be doing with all these”? I asked again. Well it’s none of my business but I became engrossed and fascinated by what I saw. “Could this be what I have been missing all these years?” “Was this why my dad never wanted me to go out and pushed me to this private university against my will?” I kept asking myself. Too late for all that.

Shortly Anita walked in and I quickly closed all the folders and pretended to be watching pictures. She gave me one funny look like someone caught in the act. I have seen over 5 videos, different types including a three-some video. “Hi what’s up?” Anita asked. “I’m good. Are you done with your washing?” I asked. “Yes o. finally. Are you hungry?” she asked. “Nah, I am good. I ate at the canteen much earlier.” I replied. I was filled with both food and fantasy and all that occupied my mind was the touch of a man. I was pretty scared too. “Will it be painful?” I quickly drafted my mind from several amorous thoughts that filled my heart. Anita later joined me as we both sat on her bed to watch a movie…a real one this time. I was tempted to ask her about the videos I saw and why she has so many of them on her laptop. But I had a change of mind. It’s none of my business and I don’t want her to know I saw them, she could feel I invaded her privacy. I don’t want to ruin our friendship…so I thought.

Before I left for my room, I transferred some of the pornographic videos into my phone when she stepped out to buy food for us to eat. It’s already 6pm and I have spent over 5hours there. I started feeling hungry. As soon as she stepped out, I quickly sent about 3videos into my phone. The file sizes were much. I just picked 3 at random. Over curiosity they say…kills the cat.
Later that night, I locked my room and started watching the videos. Of course I was alone because my roommate, chidinma, travelled. So I didn’t have to watch over my shoulders. I was excited and intrigued. That was the beginning of my world of pornography which suddenly graduated into masturbation. I saw how the guys suck the ladies and vice versa. I felt kind of kinky. The whole experience seems new and I wanted to explore. I remember getting so wet that I had to take off my panties. It then gradated to touching myself…I moaned silently as I rubbed my clit gently and enjoyed all the pleasures I could get but I wasn’t satisfied, I wanted more. I could only get that from a boy. I concluded. I was scared, paranoid and filled with huge sexual desires. If I knew this was how my life will turn out, I probably won’t have ventured into that fantasyland. It started just as an innocent fantasy but graduated into a huge uncontrollable mess.