It is never worth, losing yourself, be like water.

     I have met some people who destroyed my life even until I lose my job, my sense of reality, got me in depressions, and some sort of shitty things. All that happened made me hate and wished I could have punch or do something evil to these people. So I took a long break for myself going from one places to another. 

All these anger, hate and depressions #took me more than a year to recover. Seriously. I could wish them get punished or something bad happen to them ten fold, but it never did, karma isn't doing it's job some how so I don't believe in karma. Life is unfair, so I have to accept it. And the only wisdom I seek through out all the past year was getting rid of all the pain and grudge I hold inside, bit by bit. I made walls and burned some bridges along the way so I could protect myself, and be stronger and focused most of my time and thoughts on doing things that make me happy. I made new friends and new memories while on my journey to heal. Now, I almost forgotten who were those people are (those who had dragged me to rock bottom). I have nothing to care or wondering about them anymore. So I make my own fate and let not anyone to destroy my happiness. It feels like I am reborn or rise from the ashes. Those #people or #things that wasn't meant for me, will not be meant for me. No matter how much I grasp it tightly and won't let it go, it will continuously hurting me (the negativity). So I chose to let it go to save myself.

I #choose to be happy and ignore those who gonna bitched behind my back(spreading false news, criticizing me, brainwash other people to go against me, creates bad impression about me etc) or being an as****e in my life (bully, pretending to be nice, fake sweet talk, sabotage, etc). They don't deserve to be in my 'good people list'. What a drama #queens & #kings. I #don't blame those who #got blinded or brainwashed by them. Maybe their #insights are too shallow in #knowing the #difference between good and bad and to easily believe something from those 'drama people'.

I want to thank my real friends who had been supporting me all the year round and gave me positive vibes , thanks to the pastor whom I had seek advices and Bible study with, thanks to wise people who shared their life's stories with me (to know I am not the only one who got betrayed, bullied and hurt) and thanks to God for sending people from different places when I in need to seek peace and freedom. Amen.