I was up most of the night as well. You shouldn't feel you failed her. Though i feel similar feelings of "ownership ". Laura was stubborn both a good trait for her but ultimately led her to choosing this path. I'm shocked still. During her resilient peaks, i felt a lot of hope she'd pull through. At This point i feel some weird sense of "relief" if you want to call it that because at leadt she is free from her suffering. Thanks for the comment means allot