i made a deal with myself to put out 60 post in 60 days. i think i would have left early if i hadnt done that. but somewhere in that consistency i realized a few things. the most important one was something i repeat to myself often. Steemit doesnt owe me shit.
it takes a bit of realignment of brain...but we dont expect shit from facefuck or twitter or snapcrap or whatever other social media...but something with the monetizing of steemit changes our feelings and expectation about the platform.
the simple reality is...i have created more articles, poems, blogs, comedy, vlogs, sketches, short films. I have engaged with a shocking amount of folks and been turned on to wild learnings, musings and skills... i even met in real life 4 complete strangers and it was awesome each time. I should owe steemit money for this. but instead have been paid ..even if meagerly.
when i dropped my expectation vibe...i became infinitely happier here.

I liked your candid report card here. all feelings are very normal. I hope you stick with it...as i enjoy popping over....and congrats on finagling your way into steemitbloggers ...good to have you there.