I too was like that in a lot of ways. You combine low self esteem + superman/messiah complex of wanting to save everyone, then the fear of looking weak, and appearing to always be the man with the plan and the shoulder to cry on that led to a behaviour that was difficult for me to sustain.

You will have you own time, your own pace and there will be no rush for you to show everything.

Thank you for saying that I inspire and motivate you, this really helps me pass the energy forward to people and try to keep inspiring on that even with all our flaws and weaknesses, we are still awesome.