You are waiting for a quick response, you tell God that only for this time your answer comes soon and sometimes you try to make him believe that you deserve that quick response because you have been an excellent servant and son of Him, however the answer is not go.

You want to cry or you're crying, you see how the landscape that was recently quiet has now become a storm that does not stop.

I understand you, I have been at that point, I know what it feels to want a quick or instant response, I know what it feels like to believe that you deserve that answer and not receive it, I know what it feels like to be desperate and not see the results that you would like to see, I know what it is to cry before God hoping that He will take pity on you to answer you when you want, but also not see an answer at the moment you want.

When I have found myself in that point of despair, believing that I deserve a quick response from God, I have found several phrases from the Lord: "Why you? Why should I answer you when you want? more people with similar or more difficult problems than yours ?, Why do not I have to answer them before you? "

I was there in those moments, where I would like to be taken into account first where I discovered that God is right, that my despair has led me to be selfish, to think only of myself, to try to make God do what I want and not what He has to do. I have realized that my despair has not led me to think well, I have not thought that if I am under God's control, everything will be fine no matter how bad it may seem.

In those moments where I understand what God wants to tell me is when I can only say: "God you have control, you know what you have to do and at what moment you will do it, I submit to your will". And it is in those moments when my life humbles itself, where I recognize the sovereignty of God and his power, where God floods me with peace, that spiritual peace that makes me feel that all will be well, that peace that makes me believe that God He will act and that the way He will act will be perfect, better than I could imagine.