I don't quite understand what kind of situation are you in but if you need help in steemit, feel free to join us in a new build discord.

https://discord.gg/ZKAg6rA

And keep engaging with other steemians. Drop a related to the topic comments on their post and you might get new followers.

As I see you also join a faucet, you could join mine too.

https://steemit.com/steempress/@heartbeat1515/sharingiscaringgiveawayfaucetweek2-bwcwe71z6j

It's better if you could write more in english so that if I pass by your blog again, I could understand.

Hope that I'm answering your question and furthermore helping you to resolved whatever it is that you are feeling now.
Keep steeming @thaishps.