Hi @michelleart, I am also sorry to hear about your loss, that might have changed your life completely. It is a weird feeling for the human soul to have such dramatic loss and feeling of emptiness despite of being with the rest of the family. I hope you will recover from your loss and will be able to find some distraction. Just have you time and do what you think you need to. It is typical for Artist it will be a time when you will know that you need to do something but do not force yourself. Take care ...