What Should I Do Today...
The Last Day of August
It doesn’t feel light.
The long month of August passed by in a blink.
It’s like opening a new bag of snacks — at first it seems like it will last long, but after a few bites, suddenly the bag is empty. August too feels like an empty bag now, gone before I even realized it.
Time is strange.
It doesn’t care whether we’re going through good days or bad ones. It just keeps moving forward. Childhood passed, youth passed, adulthood passed, and now even old age seems to be slipping away even faster. And so, only my heart feels restless.
Yesterday, I bought two lottery tickets.
I even borrowed money from someone who looked “lucky” to buy them.
Maybe it’s foolish, but deep inside I still hope for first prize.
In the past, I thought buying a lottery ticket was just something I did for fun, but now that I’ve grown older, I find myself wishing for that first prize too.
Maybe it’s because of the years gone by, but I’ve developed a sense of impatience I never had before.
I always thought I wasn’t really old yet, but when I sent my father to heaven this May, I realized it deeply — I am getting old too.
At the funeral, most of the visitors were old friends, but they looked so aged that I could hardly believe they were the same people I once knew. And then it hit me:
If they have aged, so have I. None of us can escape time. And even if we could, what would be the point?
There’s a time for generational change, and resisting it only makes things worse. It’s fine to hold onto lingering attachments in love, but not for life itself. Whether we cling or not, the end will still come.
I don’t know what the next world will be like, but I believe if we finish our journey here with dignity — not necessarily with glory, but with grace — we’ll pass peacefully into that new world as well.
And maybe that’s why it feels important to finish August properly, to close it with meaning.
If we do, then perhaps September will be safe, and filled with better days.
So, what should I do today...
Thank you.
2025/08/31