Unspoken

Call me coward for not being able to express how I truly feel about you
Forgive me for feeling unsure if what we’re feeling is true
I had doubts and I wouldn’t deny it
I knew in your world I wouldn’t fit
You were too sweet that it sounded like sarcasm
But honestly, for me what we had was wholesome
Heading to church on Sundays with you was the best part of us dating
Talking shit to each other wasn’t that of a big deal
I knew back then that this could be like James and Nadine, something that’s real
You were full of efforts, traveling more than 12 kilometres every time we meet
And once you get closer and closer to my skin I can’t control how my heart beats
Was I afraid of danger or of the possibility that after this everything’s over?
You were persistent, finding every reason, every way possible
No matter how far, what time and how demanding I was with you
You never go against my will, you were always there even if I wasn’t
I was too blind with the personality someone has told me about you
This is nonsense, I was afraid and will always be

I wrote this poem when I realized I loved the man I’ve been seeing for a year. I didn’t expect he would feel the same, because she was handsome and cool. I’ve always disregarded that idea of us being together as I am no one compared to him. Not until, he saw this poem I posted on my Facebook account. We talked and confessed the same emotions for each other. But, it was too late for us. Though, we’re happy in our own little ways because we’re still friends.

Photo below was our last date.