Too many voices that sometimes you fail to hear your own.
As you built your wall higher as you growing your guard stronger, the process eventually exhaust all of who you are inside that makes you asks question why you doing all these defenses for. Why are you doing all these? You start destroying yourself inorder to protect yourself. I just hope that despite the darkest hour, you still reminded that you're not the troubled sea but the mighty lighthouse. You're still you. Breathe. Dig deeper and remind yourself who you really are and embrace it.