Is the light worth igniting? Our Choice.

I have lived both types. Actually most of our readers do i bet.

We have been in a state of ignorance and we know we were happy in those times of worrying only about petty daily issues.
At-least I was in a state of total ignorance few years ago. I am sorry If calling this 'ignorance' is not appropriate but for me it is.
My only crisis each day was whether to wash dishes or wait for the wrath of my mother? How can I make this dress with best contrast as to dazzle my cousins? How many hours I have to study to get this much scores so that my parents can brag about it in front of relatives. And at the end day dreaming about the future husband who will save me form all these little problems and will take me into a fantasy land.
THAT IS IT.

I envy that life and not at the same time. I envy because I was not in a constant uneasiness that I am now in. Now, after a lot of time has passed, I am in existential crisis. I am confused about a lot of things. There is not a second of contentment. A lot is happening around me and nothing makes sense.
And, here I am deciding that what was better? Being that less knowledgeable, indifferent to the world, ignorant but happy person or a person who knows now, whose worldly views have expanded but is not happy at heart with all the malice around me. Is the light worth igniting?
What do you think?

Thank you for reading.