Don't you dare think about suicide, Ever! Go to Gaza Bank if you want to suicide, give helps to the children that being attacked by the israeli army before you decide to die.
You need a friend @nurseanne84, a real one.. try to make friend with a local student if you have to. But... you knew yourself very well. Deal with whatever that fears you.. thought and pray for you my dear.
Pet a cat or dog if you have to. Talk to your mom through skype or whatsapp video call.. don't think it will cost you much if you find a free wifi access.. though you have the rights to feel so down, but don't hsng around that feeling too long. Failures means you need to rise up and try it again. You are a lucky woman, you have a good way to speak out your mind.
I had those moments but, it passed @cicisaja. How can I come and visit you there in Indonesia if I'm already dead. hehehehe
Thanks God.. it'll passed.. so, grab yourself a full of spirit to complete your study and enjoy a week or 2 vacation before you go back to your routine.. soend your day with me... I'll feed you up