A Musing Self Shame

in #poetry7 years ago

I am a pretender
a liar
a manipulative selfish daughter
I am a bad person

I can hide my tears
into saccharine smile
I can show you I'm fine
even I have hurricane inside
I can even you stab you in the heart
And offer you a hand

I will tell you sugarcoated lies
without blinking my eyes
keep promises to you
that wont take place in my mind

I will manipulate you
if I have to
If theres something i want
by hook or crook i shall get it
I call myself selfish
because it's true

It really breaks my heart
to say that my mother is hapless
to have a child like me
a daughter who's a baddie

I am a pretender
a liar
a manipulative selfish daughter
I am a bad person

to you,
who I owe an apology
From the bottom of my screwed heart
I am sorry.
-@hellorixx

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