Blog manifest

To steemit community

I want to say hello to the Steemit community I was following for past month. I am student of technology, part time worker and wannabe musician. This is me mustering up my courage to start documenting and changing my life.

In one short sentece:

This is personal developement blog dedicated to my life journey.

My tought process creating this blog:

I have a feeling that so far I spent my whole life mostly as a spectator. As a passanger on the back seat of the motorcycle. Not having ability to steer, only enjoying and mostly suffering consequnences of the reckless driver’s random offroad turns.

For the last year I have seen myself gradualy slipped into dispiritednes. During this time I felt fat accumulating on my body (not too bad, but definetly time to fix that). With my social skills improving and having more and more friends I felt more and more lonely and for the love of me I can’t find the reason for that. The worst part of this is I am unable to form romantic relationships, but at least I think I know what is the reason for that. I have also felt a drop in my professional and academic life during this time.

My intention for this blog is to never whine again. Last paragraph is for snapshot only. In recent months I have already taken some steps on recovery, though I was not following my plan with discipline and this is about to change. The core of my self-prescribed therapy is going to consist of: nofap, daily running, reading and documenting my recovery and development. I intend to gradually add habits to said stack, but I want to give the Time some time.

The reason I am making this blog public is to achieve some kind of accountability. Eventhough I am not guru nor do I intend to be one, my writings might inspire someone to take life in his/her hands.