Dear Diary: Painlessness Gives Me A Good Sleep And Mobility

I had again a great sleep today because I took some pain medicine yesterday after I ate supper. The effect wasn't felt until deep in the morning so today all day I am as painless as a numb cheek on the dentist's chair. I know now what to do when I can't walk due to pain in my leg, feet, and all, I will just take pain medicines because they work in giving me the relief that i needed and it gives me a good sense of well-being.

Sometimes I envy normal people especially when I see them have a good time with working joints, appetite, and all pain free and laughing because i now cannot do the things that I was doing before and it all makes me bedridden and disabled from doing much in my life.

But you cannot question me why I feel that way because not being able to do your basic functions for me is like being a prisoner without a jail cell and a trial. Nobody wants to get imprisoned but it feels like that when you have a disability like mine where all things have a border and a limit and it is saddening to realize that setup in my own life.

So I am in a constant struggle to move on but at least I am getting some assistance from people around the world and the care and love from them are truly immeasurable and there is no vessel in the world that will contain my appreciation and thankfulness about them. God bless you all my friends, you know who you are.and I will promise you that I will keep on striving to make myself better and reach for my goals of self-improvement with the best of my abilities.