who'd say

Once again memories invade me in everything you have done in hurting me and give the result of duplicate in loving you, I am a masochist I admit it, I want to be strong and I show it even when deep down you are my weakness my damn and greatest weakness, I do not know how you could hurt me, when every day my eyes shine when I see you, when I'm happy to have you, when I try hard to give you everything you want even when it stopped being my priority and went into the background for you, for being the first that comes to my mind when I wake up and is exactly the last thought to sleep, to be faithful and love you as long ago people stopped doing it, to indulge even if that applies sacrifices that you can not imagine, sometimes I think that the love of this way makes you react so closely to mine, causes explosive sensations in me of the best I've felt and others where I feel like the worst shit that has touched this world so selfish and very little real, the disappointment invades me by your side, so much so that sometimes jealousy can make me believe that I am on the verge of a mental and possessive collapse, it hurts me to think that you can have and see someone else, that many opportunities I have given you and still I'm still the one who gives everything without measures, because I fall in love with a person who does not deserve what I give and what I am, because deep down I knew that you were not made to go, but I live in love with everything that is impossible, everything what can not be and I do it! Today memories invade me to see that girl I hate with my insides to which one day you called her Love and I thought that we only talked about myself, who grew up to be your exclusive love forever.