Me Singing In My Bed

Earlier today a dear friends mom died.  I am currently thousands of miles away, and have been bed bound almost entirely the past three years with a severe blood infection That went undiagnosed for years.  So there was no way I could run to her side like I wanted to.  So I decided to sing her a song.  I'm scared to death to post myself singing, especially since I was trying not to cry, and I'm very ill, and couldn't even sit up in bed to sing.  I loose my breath a lot, and my voice cracks a lot.  I'm NOT a professional singer.  I don't sing regularly at all anymore,  I do love singing though...  always have.  It has help me cope with and make it through some of the most difficult things in my life.  Loosing my mother on my 20th Birthday.  Loosing three babies before finally conceiving my son.  Loosing my sister to a cult.  To loosing my health, life, friends, and dignity at 28. Becoming paralyzed, in a wheelchair.  Being cared for 24/7 by my husband.  Music has always been there.  Through the darkest nights when I went an entire month without sleeping more than 2 hours in a 24 hour period, and usually less than 1.  Music was there.  When my son was finally born after loosing 3 before him, and he had to come by emergency C-section a month early to save both mine and his life, but then an hour later went into full cardiac arrest in a hospital grossly under equipped to deal with an infant his size.  That catapulted is into a tumultuous month of fighting for our babies life.  But whether it was through a jingle on TV, or a song on my iPod on frantic repeat, or a sweet friend singing to me as the tears poured down my face "the sun will come out, tomorrow."  Music was always there to say what I needed to hear.  And that was that someone cared.  For me.

So today when my friends mother passed away suddenly and I couldn't run sit with her,  I racked my brain for what I COULD do...  what would be meaningful to me?  MUSIC!

And so with a voice literally shaking and quaking with the nerves of singing, and the emotion of this situation, I lay in bed, and sang into my phone, while a karaoke track plays on my TV.    Nothing fancy, but full of love.  I snapped a photo after I sang that I attached to the file, but I didn't want to take a video.  Usually I would play the piano, and sit up at least, but today I was too weak, and I felt it couldn't wait another day, and who knows when I'll be strong enough to do that anyway!  This song I sing one I've played over and over while I've been deathly ill and vomiting through a lot of sleepless nights.  "You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now.  Come morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound." was such a comfort lyric on those horrific nights.  Of course I'm talking about Safe And Sound by Taylor Swift and The Civil Wars.  It's a haunting and beautiful melody.  I hadn't heard this exact version before and slipped up a bit, so please be advised this isn't a professional recording, and I'm not a professional singer.  But my husband told me I MUST share it here on Steemit, and part of my healing from this illness has been to be bold in ways I never have and start using my voice, even from bed.  And while naturally I would have continued to procrastinate rather than actually sing for any type of public to hear, my friend needing some love and music?  That was JUST the motivation I needed.   So here is my beloved offering to anyone going through a really hard time.  Please comment and share with anyone you know having a difficult time.  "Come morning light, you and I'll be Safe And Sound."

You'll be alright My friends.  You'll be alright.  💕

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And if anyone has tips on getting a recording off of an iPhone on the garage band app (or I'm delighted to download any app that's easy on iPhone) to upload to YouTube, and then how to link it to Steemit?  I'm only finding info on how to upload from a computer, which I don't have access to right now.  If you have any tips please leave them below!  It would be MUCH appreciated, as this FB link was the only way I could get it here, and I really didn't want to put it on Facebook at all!  So help me make steemit my place!  Thanks all!