False hope
Drops of rain that did not stop since last night, the cold air of Bandung which must be hit by Anna, a young widow with her son named Ibnu 2 years old. Anna must go from Bandung, her beloved city. There, too many sweet stories engraved on her and her husband who had died in a traffic accident a month ago. The days are so hard for Anna to go through. However, now he realizes, sweet memories are not to be lamented, but to be fought, Anna must fight for Ibn, the only real memories of her husband.
"Son, it's a train coming, let's go up," he said as he spoke to his son who at that moment was carried by a clutch. The boy just kept smiling, not knowing that his departure was to try his fortune, not for a tour. Anna quickly boarded the train so as not to lag and get a seat.
Arriving on the train, Anna sat down beside a man almost her age. Being "pretty" with the distinctive perfume of a famous brand of perfume. Vishnu, it turns out the man is kang Vishnu. Like a thunderbolt present during the day, Anna was so shocked to learn that she had to sit next to kang Vishnu, her ex-boyfriend during high school. I do not know what should be felt by Anna, but on the other hand he was very happy to meet with Kang Vishnu again, after his last meeting 3 years ago at the wedding reception and after that kang Wisnu leave, disappeared without any news, as already swallowed by the earth.
Anna? ", He said. Kang Vishnu calls me, he kanget until I see the two eyeballs enlarged, as still do not believe that I am Anna a woman that she loved very much. "I, ii .. Yeah kang", I replied a little hesitant and stammered. He was still silent, as if his world stopped walking. I kuberanikan to say "Kang Vishnu, how are you?". "Oh, yes Na, I'm good. Sit here, eh where is your husband? ", He asked as he looked left and right sign he was looking for kang Rudi, my dead husband. "We are only kang, kang Rudi has died because of an accident last month", I replied while looking at Ibn who seems to be getting sleepy. Kang Vishnu is silent, he may feel guilty for his question. "It's fate, kang," I added. Now Vishnu's face improves, I give my warm smile to him. We both fell silent. I prefer to look at train windows, I see mountains, rice fields and other beautiful scenery. Kang Wisnu is busy tidying up his clothes.
Half an hour after the departure of the train we were traveling on, I started sleepy. Suddenly kang Vishnu asked, "We must rise Na, we can not be chained by the past. After this what will you do? ". I understand where the conversation is going. I know that kang Vishnu still loves me, I know it from Sinta, my close friend. He said kang Vishnu is very choosy in terms of looking for a partner, he desperately wants a woman who is exactly like me. "I certainly have to work kang, to meet the needs of my family life", I replied with a smile. "Maybe you need someone else's help not to overly raise your child", rubbing Ibnu's sleeping cheek. I do not want to comment on it, I just say "His name is Ibnu, kang". "A good name, a proper name for my son," he said. "I'm sorry kang, you mean?" I asked. I actually understand where the direction of Vishnu's conversation is going. I just pretend to be stupid. Actually, for a widow who has to raise a child is very difficult and I am so happy that someone still loves me, surely she is the person I love too. However, in fact I did not want to hurt my in-laws, the parents of Kang Rudi.
"It's impossible you have to raise it alone?", He said. "Oh, if that's the matter she said she would help kang, yes even if not how he said", I replied to understand. Kang Vishnu just paused, he had run out of speechless words. Maybe he thinks I'm stupid and insensitive now, or he already realizes I'm just pretending, I do not care! After that we both fell silent. Long enough.
Soon the train will arrive at the destination, Jakarta. In the journey earlier kang Wisnu already told me that he has now become a successful person, working in a large company in the area of Jakarta. He also said that until now he is still looking for a woman who will be his life companion. However, he still has not found anyone better than me. He also said that girl or widow, rich or poor, kang Vishnu do not care. The words are quite clear that he still wants to bond with my family.
Before the train stopped kang Vishnu said "Anna, I still love you". Yes, brave enough. Finally he expressed his feelings, again. Maybe she does not want to lose her love, anymore. However, he must accept that I can not be with him, over and over again. I can not answer, only the smile I give.
Before leaving, I said to kang Vishnu "Kang, it's true kang Vishnu, Anna must rise up, Anna should not be chained by the past and Anna may be looking for the happiness of Anna who has gone before. Anna hope kang Vishnu too. Assalamu'alaikum kang ". "Yes Anna, I will always wait for my happiness that was lost, Wa'alaikum salam Anna", he replied. I saw a smile of hope radiating in his face. I can only smile back, I have to hurry away, I'm afraid the devil shakes my beliefs, however I'm young and I still have the same taste.
"Sorry kang, what Anna means is Anna will raise Ibn, this is the happiness of Anna who is left, Anna hope someday there is someone better than Anna who kang Vishnu find. However kang Vishnu deserves happiness ", I muttered to myself. Finally I continued my journey. Not Jakarta that I am headed, but Malaysia. Yes, now I am a migrant worker and maybe I will not see you again, kang Vishnu.