I've been wondering where you've been, and now I think I know:(
I read through all of the comments and the support you have here is pretty special, but I would like to offer you mine as well. You're a good mom, a good wife, a good person! And often times with mental illness of any sort, we lose our focus as well as our will, and everything seems wrong. But in reality it is not; it's our perception that's wrong, and changing that perception is a Herculean task! Focus on the little sleeping angel even when she's driving you crazy, and see the world through her little eyes.
It is my belief that "crying" does not make you weak. We live in a society where suddenly we are only supposed to feel positive feelings, and we're to simply shake off the negative ones. As humans, we were created with the ability to feel all emotions, and to grow and develop, we need to process those negative feelings as well as the positive ones. Process them, examine them, learn from them. That's what eventually gives you wisdom and strength.
I know you can do this, and so do you, if you'll just allow yourself to believe. I'm sending you all kinds of big internet hugs and you've got my ear on Discord anytime you need it. <3
Just read this now and taking a deep breath. 'You are a good mom' that part got me. Feeling like my body needs to cry lol.
'a herculean task' that you are right. I am trying to see things differently and things are the way they are just because and just for now. The brain is a powerful muscle and brings me back to this ugly feeling.
Some times are better than others and sometimes I think things are ok and I struggle to function. I burned my supper yesterday with the easiest thing. No reason to burn it I was right there with it all the entire time. Scares me for what things are going to be for when I go to work at the restaurant tonight.. Im the cook.
I have immense support here and I offer the same to everyone. That is also a reason why I am sorry to not be on here so much. People here are fabulous and amazing. I can't thank you and the others enough. I want to say more, I just don't know what to say. Much love Lynn and thank you for the big hugs ^_^
No need to say anything...I was trying to support and help a friend, so there's no need to reciprocate <3
I hope work went well!! And I hope your day is too :)
As always, right. back. atcha. <3