Who am I?

WHO AM I ? And what is my way of life.
I don't like in equality, or the thought of some person or creature feeling forgotten about.
I don't like fake things,or fake people. I live for creativity, and spend my time either learning or looking for inspiration, or else creating/ writing.. I never really liked TV although as a kid I did like some shows, particularly shows on nature, history and music.
Stories that effected me such as Pappion or Vincent Van Gough or Otto Carrius .
The belief systems of history and what we in the modern 21st century world have taken from them, what lessons can we learn from history.
Freedom from central government,
Freedom from central banking,
Freedom from a financial system falsely propped up by drug companies who profit from illness and arms companies who profit from war.
What do we know? … No guns = no fight, but at what cost ? It allows those who illegally have guns to bully good people, so we need some kind of armed responders. But people specially trained to not escalate situations to the point of violence, [which usually comes from them.]
The force I use in my model society are called the IronGuard. Taught to understand people and be more of a good guy community cop.
We need to understand each other and what we each are about we need to not just see situations from our own perspective.
We need to agree in equality and not want more for ourselves than for others.
We need to have a government that supply’s medical help to all members of society. We need the government to provide Schooling in history that is relevant to the world in which we live today, and also practical skills such as camping and creativity, in all areas such as woodwork and engineering.
This government should be made of three houses of uneven number [such as five] who are each voted in by local community. Government should work concentrically. All issues regarding changes of law should be voted upon by ALL the townspeople , not just the parliamentarians.
All drugs should be taught about honestly in school and made legal to adults as in Portugal. Prohibition has been proven again and again not to work. Repeatedly people break the law, and if that is the case then it really is the law that should change to the wishes of the people, as law against the will of the people is tyranny.
No group should be left out or singled out for special treatment in the way that zionist jews are treated as special citizens with special rights and more of a share of everything than anyone else. This immorality based on fake guilt laid at the feet of generations of people who are guiltless for the purposes of exploitation must stop.
We must start each day looking at the future and not thinking about yesterdays losses.
The older I get, the more cynical I become as I see over and over how much abuse and immoral behaviour goes on. You would think by now we could have got over having wars, yet we have more than ever. We have enough nuclear weapons to destroy the planet many times over and still it is not enough. Endless assaults on liberty and justice. And the most abusive walk free. This is a wicked, wicked world my friends, and good people are few and far between. All the more reason why good people should group together in secure groups, creative communities.
I always thought I would be some kind of superman/do-gooder type of person, and as much as I have had the power to be I have. Twice now I have been there at just the right moment to catch an old person as they fell. And I thank god/providence, for these small chances to be the right person at the time of need, But I always wanted to do something big in the world that was good for many people and of course other creatures. Yes and I guess that comes of too many comics and Films when I was young, also one of the first toys I remember getting was a toy Knight on horseback. But as an adult I have spent my years as a wannabe musician, a learner songwriter, really with all that I have had and lost in this life I am just a Looser who has nothing to show for a life of work. I am kind of on the scrapheap now, but I still feel there is a chance with the songs and the recording that Ramie has so kindly given me to make a way of getting cash for them,either from Sharleen or from trying as a musician under the name, ' Poli.' on youtube ,spotify,Etc. USB ALBUMS.
I always felt special, and not like other kids, and true to form, most of what I liked and didn’t like as a child was the opposite of other kids. I was always aware of being different, if everybody had a red ball I wanted the only purple one, similarly I like things with 'patina' more than new things. I value loyalty above all other traits and am very loyal to those I call my friends. If you are a friend and do me wrong I tend to forgive you, This has been my downfall many times as when someone rips you off and you forgive them, they come back for more.,If I ever get to create this little community that I dream of then the only punishment is banishment from the colony I do not believe in punishment. But if you are not willing to stick to the rules you must be removed.
Back to me, I am kind of retarded in that I can only deal with one thing at a time and have to focus. I can't do a thing and talk at the same time, yet I can play guitar and sing together. I am full of these contradictions.
To do a lot of the every day things that other people take for granted I have to completely concentrate.
RELIGION? What do most religions have in common? They believe in a higher power than man, they usually believe that their God will come to earth again, they believe they have it right and everyone else is wrong. This is a trap.
What I have of value? My ability as a songwriter and a poet, are these things of any value these days?
I chose to never have a wife or family, my first try with Evita was enough, but my Guitars are my family, my Passionate Les Paul, stolen in Los Angeles, and my Spanish Blonde,stolen in Glasgow. I pine for them and wake up each morning thinking about them and how can I get them back. I am lost without my guitars.
Both times the Police have been used as the tool to facilitate the theft. First engineered by Evita who put Chris and Sandro up to 5150ing me, then by Bobby Howat,In Glasgow.
With everything I have went through I have totally lost my confidence, I used to be fearless but now I fear everything. It is a terrible place to be. A prisoner of all your worry. And they can be completely irrational fears, it is a strange way to feel. That is the reason I don't really go out any more other than to walk Gutchi, I just fear any interaction at all with people. Maybe that is why I like to write?

I have always been a loner and that is fine apart from that it leaves you vulnerable to people ganging up on you which has happened to me many times.
I have ended up feeling that every move you make puts you in a worse position, Like quicksand.
Where every breath you take is bringing you closer to disaster, or that no mater how right things may seem at present entropy drags you down eventually. I do not like feeling so pessimistic but after so many great losses you feel very vulnerable. Twice now in my life my eccentricity has been used against me via psychiatry and the police, by way of a simple lie and a phone call.. Saying I was suicidal or that I was psychotic, and no questions asked I was whisked away to a nut ward for a little over two months in each. The experience changed me the first time but really changed me the second time. And now I live in constant fear, and because it was taken away from me, all I want to do is sit petting Gutchi. some psychological help psychiatry has been. They are the only reason I have been psychologically damaged in the first place. I was fine before I was 5150ed by Chris and Sandro.
I would like to state here my abhorrence of suicide, In the conventional western model we are only here once and we are dead forever, what a waste it would be to throw it away. It is crushing for those who cared about the person and I am sure if they saw the suffering they caused they would have taken a different path. And for the record I will state that I have never nor would ever kill myself, it is not in my nature. And it would hurt a lot of people who have been very loyal to me. And I thank them all for being there for me, I have been lucky for the good friends I have had. The reason we all live is usually to grow wise , mate, have children, grow old and die. T hat path never appealed to me and I have lived to become the best songwriter I can be. And to create a small artist's commune where we can live naturally and healthy, I would like to die old and in my own garden. Dreams I know but top Business man [ex CEO of IBM computers] Bill O’Brien once told me you must have dreams to succeed and they should range from very small to saving the world, the higher you shoot the higher you land. But my goal right now is to find a successful musician who wants songs, I have plenty to offer.