Yes, I am sad sometimes, but it’s unimportant - the same as when I am happy.

I realize that even happiness in our world is a product or illusions or hormones (or both). When we go beyond our brain illusions and our body chemistry, things change. We face the unknown there, and ideas of “sadness” and “joy” are both tested.

I thought that I knew why I was here. But now I know less than before ). I have seen some really disturbing things. I may start writing about them later. I don’t know yet if I can... or should... actually try to describe them.