Creating Elite Players: Newsletter Day 9

in #mad • 3 years ago (edited)

The world sucks.

I'm not depressed or anything, though I might be a little angry.

No, I just needed to stick it to the world to feel better. That's really all it is.

Why? Mostly because of the last header in this post. But I would be lying if I said the other factors weren't a part of it.

Don't let me waste anymore space. Let's rap.

Living Situation

My friends told me about a lakeside townhome complex in Abbotsford and texted me the number. I called them, got tossed around to the property manager, and when I finally got through, learned that they only had a single, one-bedroom suite available for $1,990 per month.

I understand that it's a lakeside property and all, but it's not Vancouver for crying out loud. Plus, they plan to demolish the complex in two years. I would've thought they'd have a better deal on a suite like that, and so did my friends.

Another door closed.

It's also looking 90% certain that I will need to leave where I'm currently staying in South Surrey in the next few days... a few weeks at most.

Another door slammed shut.

I will admit to feeling down for a fleeting moment. But then I remembered that all I'm seeing are the doors closing. I haven't identified the doors that are opening wide for me. I don't know where they are, and I don't know the circumstances concerning their discovery. It could happen anywhere, any time.

I'm going to spend some more time searching tonight. Maybe something will turn up. I still have backup plans. There are other Airbnbs. I might be able to stay with friends for a few days. I may be able to find a campsite at Cultus Lake, especially now that it's off season. One conversation could change everything.

Romantic Life

I said in another post that I hit it off with someone special. Well, it's starting to look like maybe she isn't all that special. The universe doesn't seem to be meeting me even halfway in keeping me in South Surrey, and honestly, it's probably the only way she would date me. I'm not desperate, I just wanted to seize the opportunity as it presented itself. I've left opportunity on the table before, and I've regretted it.

I had a friend say she's probably crazy and will be demanding, especially financially, if I get involved with her. I take that with a HUGE grain of salt, but she knows Chinese women better than I do. Maybe it would be more trouble than it's worth.

I'm not trying to justify or argue one way or another. I am open to the vast field I'm tapping into with my emotions. What I'm saying is I don't know. It could really go either way.

What I do know is there will be others to pursue if this one doesn't work out.

Work Life

It's finally dawning on me that I've settled for too little. I haven't been selfish enough.

That seems like an odd thing to say in an age when people are practically self-obsessed to the point of narcissism. But I'm getting that no one will choose me. I must choose myself. This was the essence of the conversation I had with my mastermind this week too.

I got paid today. Not in an "awesome, I'm going to go out and have a steak to celebrate" kind of way. More so in a "what the hell am I doing with my life?" kind of way.

It seems people always want to cut you down to size. They can't possibly conceive that you might be worth more, and that it might have nothing to do with skill, experience, or good looks. The difference between a $50 consultant and a $5,000 consultant? The $5,000 consultant bets on themselves to deliver at least $5,000 of value to their clients, even if they don't initially know the hell how.

Give me a break, dimwits.

I'm a self-published author of six books, soon to be seven. Three of them became best-sellers. I've written thousands of articles. And I'm just talking about one domain. I have achieved just as much as a musician, podcaster, and presenter / speaker.

I've got to be more selfish. Take care of myself. I can't live off of slave wages. It's a cruel punishment for all my hard work, as well as the pain and disappointments I've endured.

I Just Needed to Get This Off My Chest

That's really it. I'm still in a great mood, very hopeful. Things always work out for me, and I'm excited to see how this situation is going to play out.

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