RE: How the Ego avoids Self-Love
I have to smile. I have been through a lot lately, and when I read this post, I know what you say is right. All of my life has really been about just that: self-love. And I agree, there is only that. It all comes down to self-love because we are all one. The worst thing you can do is to cast a shadow upon yourself, meaning not loving, not letting yourself shine. But how easy is it in the long run?
I started out quite spiritually, actually. I was for a time only there, a lot in the spiritual ego, but as well with times when I felt completely at one with all. And that felt wonderful. Right now I am in a period of my life where I don't know who I am anymore, I constantly hinder myself from meditating, connecting to myself. It is frustrating to say it the least, most because my ego screams that I don't have time to give away the little spare time I've got to meditation, that I am a victim, etc.
That being said, I really appreciate this post. It feels wonderful to be reminded of this again. Of that time ten years ago. In many ways, I want to go back, even though my ego is strong, too.
The paradox: maybe the right thing to do is accepting my ego and loving it as it is. Telling it that it's okay that it only follows its own programming, that it doesn't want to be enlightened because it thinks it is quite boring.
But thank you for this post. Really appreciated.
WOW! What an awesome comment @vuds! Thank you! 🙏
If your ego thinks, that enlightenment is "boring", then you have a very friendly one. Mine always thought, that it would mean death. 😀
In a way, it was right - it's an ending. The end of wanting to be somewhere different than you are.
I was only 21 years old, when the ego dropped away and with it the whole world. Both "came back", because there was lots of integration to be done.
For years and years I wished to go back to this state and tried every method out there to do so. I failed. The reason simply is, because there is no back.
Everything is moving forward - all the time - and beyond time too...
Your ego is also not strong. If it were strong, you would not see it in action - you would keep dreaming. You are already aware of your ego. So that's that..
Also you have every time in the whole existence. How do I know that?
Well, there is nowhere to go and nothing to reach. So how could there be "not enough time" and especially "for what?".
Your ego is simply your hurt inner child. It is only here to be loved. Nothing else to do. If a child comes to you crying, you don't tell it, that it's not enlightened enough to be loved. You just love it.
Here is some minty fresh insight:
Your ego can't get enlightened. Your true self already is.
So what is there to do?
You are a wonderful being of Light and you deserve every Love possible.
The proof for that is, that you are breathing.
This is by the way the first and only sign, that someone or something deserves Love. If it's breathing, it's here to be loved.
So the next time, you blame yourself for not doing enough meditation, you just look if you are breathing and give yourself some freaking "I love you's" for that!
Much Love and thank you for taking your time to read this article! 🙏❤️
Wow back!!! What a wonderful reply! Thank you!! I need to answer right away, and wait for tomorrow to charge up my steem for a vote ❤️
So many wonderful, wise thoughts. I take it in the order you wrote it.
About my ego, hahaha, well, it IS afraid of ending as well. It knows where I belong, and it doesn't like that. So yes, it means death, and sometimes "I" am terrified of it. Especially when facing it. But day to day it tells me that enlightenment is boring. If I do even more than that - the death-thoughts come in, like: "what's the point of being here if you are enlightened?" and "use your time to enjoy yourself, not suffer in boredom...!
Your experience seemed quite wonderful, although I can only imagine the longing back there again. I feel a great longing for somewhere I know isn't here sometimes when I create. When I meditate I get these profound feelings of meaning, of deep deep longing. And then I just want to go, you know? Back to where I came from and that is quite painful. I have never tried to harm myself like that but the longing is horrible sometimes so, in a way, I am not afraid of death.
My ego is only doing its job. It is needed for me to be alive here on this planet, and I try to be grateful for that. If I tell it that it is weak, it will start with the victim-roles again and it's better to just boost it a little and tell it that it's strong ;)
I agree with the all the time in existence. I know that I do, but the individual Victoria - like I am today - lives only once, and that is kind of sad. Because I really like myself haha.
Totally agree with how to handle that ego. Love all the way. The only way.
I absolutely agree with you about being a being of Light and having the right to Love.
Not only that, but freedom, and safety as well. Those are our birthrights and I feel in sorrow for humanity not having that yet. Because all deserves freedom and safety. It is so important!
Thank you for the tip about meditation. You are right. After all, what is meditation, really? It could be used for so many things, including ego-boosting. Just being is what the Old Masters said all the time.
Do we ever listen?
Thank you for making this wonderful article, reminding me of this. Thank you for your heartfelt answer.
Have a wonderful day! ❤️
To your lovely ego:
"You are doing a wonderful job in protecting and taking care of Victoria! Thank you! Here is, what you need to know: Enlightenment is not the end of the journey. It's the beginning of a whole new one. In letting Victoria be the Light of her true being, she will serve humanity on a whole new level, and she will be taken care of and supported by the whole universe. Now, this doesn't mean that you will then be unemployed! You will just get a new job and you will be promoted into the role of remembering her to stay as the Light of her true being. This is a very important job! She has to be reminded to bring forth the Light for the benefit of all and from now on, she will take care of you as the spiritual guide, she has come to be for you. You can relax and get all the comfort and support you always deserved to get. Thank you, dear Ego. I love you!"
You may say this out loud daily and in a loving tone. These are the words, your ego now wants to hear.
Your longing is beautiful, my dear, and you don't need to end your life to fulfill it. In fact, you are already "there" and only need to remember yourself in that. This is one of the new jobs of your ego and so you can from now on walk together in a holy relationship. ❤️
The wonderful and individual Victory will not be forgotten - not after enlightenment and not after death. Even when you go to sleep and become One again for several hours, the moment you awake - out of a miracle of cosmic proportions - Victoria is remembered. She's there in the energy, saved in the cosmic memory banks for eternity. You don't need to remember this unique energy structure, since all your work gets saved in the cosmic cloud storage automatically! (This service is brought to you by Cloudbox. Your heavenly cloud storage service. Lifetime memberships are available at an Angel near you. This message may contain product placements...)
Thank you, lovely Victoria and as always I love you! 🙏❤️
I love this reply, every inch of it. Thank you so much. I love the affirmation. It is so absolutely awesome. Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart. From the bottom of my heart: I love you, too! 🙏❤️
Aww, thank you so much! It's my absolute honor and pleasure to support you on your journey! 🙏