Life Without You

Memories;
Deep in time somewhere still the feelings feel same way as if some part of you is still inside me to remind me of your presence, love and smile. All of these ups and downs had been destined to crush our emotions all the time. But baby, How dumb we were not to see this coming all along. If I knew you could never be mine I would’ve never let myself to come that closer to your heart.

Life. How big this word was meant before when we were together. But it’s now been meaningless without you. God knows, how far into wild I’ve wandered to find meaning for life after you left. Fortunately or unfortunately, fate always ended me up with your memories and feelings no matter how harder I tried to move on the way it was.
Moment, a silence of void filled with your laughter; Voice, your only voice going deeper and deeper on a vast journey inside. Then your smile haunts, haunts so bad, it wrenches out every beat out of my heart and still every shattered beats never get tired of beating for you.

It hurts baby. I do have feelings too. You remember that day when I fell on my knee to propose you in front of everyone in college ? You replied, “Yes dear, I Love You too.” And to listen those magical words coming out of your lips were happiest moment I would ever live on my entire life. Nervousness about your answer that moment now haunts me. It hurts, wrenches out every drop of happiness, every bit of love, every bit of life, soul to live with fact that you are never gonna be alive again. You are long gone away, far into clouds somewhere my imagination also couldn’t be strong enough to reach and make you stop right there.

When I’ll come up there, My first question for god will be to ask what made the world so jealous of our love that he had to snatch you so early. You never know when it’s going to be the last time you see someone. I had so many things to share, confessions to make, walk us together on a beautiful journey where we would create our own world, love, family.
We were there, hands in hands on our regular date, making plans about how we will get married, where would it be ? You had no idea that I was being serious and God, I would give anything to see those innocence, excitements & surpriseness in your eyes that moment again. I finally asked to marry you. Everyone in hall toasted for us; I slid the ring through your heart finger. We had our engagement. Engaged and happy, we were ready for our eight years long relationship to give its meaning. I remember you were already making plans of Honeymoon to Paris. And I was there, silent as always reading all your emotions and expressions. My cell phone vibrates, ‘It’s from work’, I say. I slip out of restaurant for a moment. I got promotion. Literally this could have been the happiest day of my life. But destiny was planned for something else. Before I could get to you, it started.

Everything, everywhere was in chaos. Earth was shivering like hell. People running for their lives, mothers for childrens. Buildings collapsing, dust everywhere , screams of panic, then stops time. Building you were in starts to give off, earthquake wins, it demolishes. I run for you but it’s too late, debris of people, dust, concrete, you and our relationship buried there alive and follows the dead silence.